Something at least.
Blah. That’s what today has pretty much been. I went to knitting partially because E would be there and it’d be one last chance to hang out before she leaves town for who knows how long but mostly because I knew if I didn’t go to knitting then I wouldn’t leave the house today. Just nothing was going on and I had no plans. Consequently, nothing much happened.
Tomorrow looks to be much of the same–maybe I’ll go over to Mom’s to do a load of laundry or something. On the one hand I enjoy the long weekend but with no plans, no one to hang out with, and no one seeking my company… well, it just emphasizes my solitary lifestyle all the more (like I need the reminding). Eh, maybe next week will pick-up, or maybe I’ll care less; something has to change or I’m going to end up even more cynical and possibly bitter over this whole mess of a life I’ve managed to assemble.
I know how you feel. I often feel the same way. Sometimes it’s great to be alone and to not have someone making demands of your time, but sometimes it’s just plain lonely. Yesterday, as I sat in my house, completely alone and wondering what everyone else in the world was doing with their families and friends, I thought about how I might be able to change my circumstances and decided to get involved in more activities. That way, I can find some new people to hang out with. It’s hard to make friends as an adult, isn’t it? You really have to go out of your way to do it. But it’s ultimately worth it, I think. Especially if you make some good ones along the way (even “virtual” ones)